First sekolah yang aku daftar adalah ABIM di hometown ku, Muar...muahahahaha...pasal tadika pun kecoh nak cerita.. tapi tak pe.. Masa itu, kami semua kena pakai warna hijau, lambang seperti berpolitik PAS...tapi kami budak budak neutral. Kelas setiap tengahhari ke petang...masa tuh, sekitar 1990an, zaman kanak kanak gi sekolah naik beca..seronok naik beca ke tadika dengan kawan kawan sambil menyanyi-nyayi dan bergendang-gendut atas beca.. nyanyi lagu "dia datang! dengan lengang lenggok nya..dia datang! tap tap tap!"...kelas aku jah...Pak Ali, penarik beca kami pun layan la kami dengan senyum simpul nya.. tap tap tap!
Ada satu ketika, ustazah suruh salah sorang budak lelaki jadi imam...mak aiiiii, berebut rebut diorang nak jadi imam.. sampai berlaga laga.. ada yang luka kepala kena smack down dengan budak lelaki lain..masyaallah...TAPI! kalau sekarang aku panggil budak budak lelaki yang berlaga laga tuh untuk jadi imam, konfem tak dapat jep.. and i cant remember so many things about this school tapi satu yang pasti, aku budak paling rajin.. orang semua baru separuh buku siap, aku dah siap sampai "ya".. kah kah kah.. hebat hebat
Sekolah kedua dalam diari hidup adalah Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Convent. This is the second best school i have ever been. School yang sangat skema but cool. Kalau kata budak sekolah convent je, konfem orang tabik. Sebab budak sekolah convent are so discipline, full with girl's spirit and yet they are so talented and creative..bukan calang calang orang boleh masuk sekolah nih..ramai parents yang bangga kalau anak mereka were from SRK Convent..no doubt..i still remember, joining artistry activity mcm main kugiran, boria, zapin, menyanyi and menari pakai baju gliltter glitter..hmm, so good..in terms of sports pun not bad...all of us mesti kena join one sport.. i cant really remember what sport i'd seriously played, but one thing for sure, i love softball in those past days... i hate the fact that satu "cikgu yang aku tak berkenan masa kecil kecil dulu" menukarkan "rumah" kumpulan aku...semata mata sebab nak anak dia masuk dalam rumah sukan yang champion every year( rumah Biru).. From Rumah Biru for five years since standard one, to Rumah Merah in standard six...itu bias! she should have give me a solid reason for why..i'm not happy with it at all...sampai skg aku masih rasa kecewa.. terus aku tak nak sprint untuk mana mana rumah lagi masa tuh.. huh..
Sekolah ketiga i've been ialah Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Convent...OMG!!! this is the very best school i ever been.. swear to god... i love this school so much and i enjoy every moment i had spent in this school...all good days i had in these school were such a great memory to be reminisce! friends were great..senior was our best enemy and teachers were meant for headache...hahaha..
i pegi sekolah naik basikal sebab rumah dekat...takkan dah besar nak naik beca lagi kot... mati semput la pak cik beca aku tuh..setiap kali petang, lepas balik sekolah konfem basikal aku lesap..korunk nak tahu lesap ke mana? lesap ke tengah padang sekolah...ini semua gara-gara pemawas(pengawas).. reasons pasal basikal aku tak de loceng pun diorang nak denda and interframe beskal kat tengah tengah padang.. takka ko nak suruh aku pasang hon? nanti terkejut satu sekolah, sapa nak jawab?! hish...
Kitorang selalu jugak buat party pada hujung minggu especially after kokurikulum...freedom party la konon konon..zaman remaja, everything nak follow citer hollywood..yang kelakarnya, party buat kat rumah nenek kawan..hahah...dulu, hujung minggu ada aktivity koko...time ni la semua orang akan bawa duit lebih sebab, blom sempat kena kerah kawad atas padang, semua orang akan cabut gi lepak shopping mall ikot pagar belakang..kat Muar, paling koman Wetex Parade..and pasal hal kami ni la, aku rasa ativity koko dah takde lagi pada hari Sabtu..kalau tak bersepah budak budak melepak...dulu budaya melepak blom terkenal lagi..kitorang founder..
di sekolah inilah aku jadi "samseng" yang terpelajar, yang bergaul dengan semua kaum secara harmoni..group samseng kami ada cina, india, melayu and even kadazan! cute tak? Kami suka melawan cikgu tapi kami murid kesayangan mereka..kami suka bergaduh dengan senior sesi pagi, tapi bila bab deco, kelas kami adalah winner...kami tak pernah prepare untuk apa-apa bila masuk pertandingan, tapi selalu menang.. cikgu selalu nag us but since we were too awesome and result selalu flying colors, they just cope with us.. huhu
Sebabkan aku terlebih pandai dan memandai mandai kan diri apply sekolah berasrama, akhirnya aku dengan terpaksanya telah pun mendaftarkan diri di sekolah ke-empat aku which is Sekolah Menengah Sains Muar.. SAMURA... wrapped up untuk sekolah ini adalah aku tak suka sekolah nih.. for some reasons, i feel like this school put too much pressure on me.. nerdy are everywhere, gugurl are so annoying and boboi exist!!!
Thou i am from convent, but i'm not behaving like "gugurl" at all..I act boyishly.. cakap and naik beskal semua kasar...convent bukit nenas maybe, but convent muar, naaahhhhh.....and because i was in girls school with only 3 male teachers and 1 half-defined, the akward feeling to they boys were so peaked up! i didnt know how to react in front of them.. i felt so shy and blur..most of my batch-mate came from KL, so aku rasa diorang nih mcm alien.. thier culture are so different...KL and Johor style is way out.. they look so nerdy but yet groom so well.. not like those boys next to convent..they are 100x times better..aku rasa aku perempuan paling selekeh kat sekolah tuh and all of them(boys and girls) were laughing hardly on girls like me.. seriously!!!
Walaupun rumah and sekolah hanya seberang sungai je, tapi aku depressed. Ada jugak rasa demotivated. Every weekend aku punch out from hostel and balik rumah..By the time 6 pm, air mata mesti bersepah turun tak cover malu dah...yang bertambah depressed bila style budak lelaki kat asrama nih, diorang suka kutuk-kutuk perempuan and bajet diorang are so cool, tapi pastu sebenarnya ada hati dengan perempuan tuh...(macam dalam cerita Korea)...What the gel??? Is that how you should treat us?? kalau ko hensem giler mcm abang Korea, boleh lah cool down sikit...ini muka mcm nak request pelempang laju laju!! urghhhh.. i hate them! but now, ok..
for all the depressed i've gone through, i shall say thanks to the teachers and warden for made me becoming so-well behaved student, becoming more appreciative and among 50 Malaysia's Top student for year 2005! weekkkkk! nak muntah... thanks a lot for letting me be a nerdy too, just like the KL boboi and gugurl! i swear, if could turn back the time, i would rarther stay in convent and be what i can be, than being too depressed and hate so many people in that school, especially seniors! well, that was my past..like i mentioned, now dah ok.. =)
After Samura, i went to PASUM.. Pusat Asasi Sains University Malaya.. my mistake for not applying overseas.. But dah Allah kata rezeki aku di malaysia, so there i was, doing foundation..For the first time keluar dari Johor, rasa shocked! not culture shocked but just shocked! UM kat tengah tengah bandar..kat bangsar..PJ and Damansara.. the hell i know where it was initially...
Sebabkan aku dah jadi seorang well-trained nerdy, so kat Pasum, aku jadi nerd! the word nerd tu macam zalim je untuk di gunakan pada diri sendiri but yeah..thats the right word! Pasum is like hell o! time packed giler.. you cant think much of pretty anything...time fly by so fast..assignment, workloads, lab and tutorial, like whoaaaa... i need to cope with it...dekat Pasum, ramai actually budak Samura..seriously ramai giler.. i pretended not to know them...coz i didnt like them?? yeah.. so when they "hi " me, i said hi and walked away...i am traumatized!
Generally, aku suka lecturer di PASUM..ada professor, ada doctorates, ada datuk/ datin and ada master student.. diorang sangat-sangat membantu.. aku closed giler dengan prof sebab aku jadi murid yang selalu berjumpa dengan mereka for one reason, aku tak paham langsung apa yang diorang ajar...demn it!
And last but not least, its time for UNI life.. University Malaya is my last alma mater...aku suka kawan kawan kat UM because semua orang baru..i like the fact that i am surrounded by new boys..my time is no longer packed...i like the fact that i have my chinesse frens again, just like what i used to have when i was in convent school ( at that time, samura and pasum are for Bumiputra) and i enjoy the fact that bangladeshi and japanesse lecturer speaks funny slang.. hahahaha..they are cute..
benda pelik yang aku baru sedar ialah, bila aku belajar giler giler pada mana-mana sem, result aku mesti dropped..tapi kalau aku selalu keluar, lepak lepak hujung minggu, backpack merata, join fashion bazaar and all, pointer aku mencanak naik sampai dean list! boleh plak macam tuh?! Rasa rugi giler, kenapalah aku gi belajar bersungguh sungguh dari first year.. patutnya aku tak payah belajar... kan? huhu
Sebenarnya as conclusion, apa yang aku try nak convey di sini adalah, bila kita nak belajar, kita kena belajar dalam keadaan senang hati dan gembira... believe me, ilmu yang korunk akan dapat masa korunk in a good state akan lebih senang untuk di absorb dan ingat..korunk jangan belajar sebab korunk terpaksa atau sebab nak exam...please... konfem ilmu tuh takkan berkekalan sebab masa tuh state korunk tengah tak stable..korunk kena pikir balik, sebab apa korunk belajar.. is it because ilmu yang korunk cari atau sebab nak scroll degree yang menjadi keutamaan... think wise..yes, it comes together and that is why you should think how you can get both...teramat lah rugi kalau korunk dapat scroll but in the end, as if mcm tak dapat apa apa..and lagi satu, belajar sesuatu itu demi Allah dan Ummah...insyallah korunk akan dapat ganjaran paling baik...try to be someone who can contribute to others as well..
And, please..do not creat a nasty environment around you or your frens..you should respect your surrounding...diorang nih tiap tiap hari doakan untuk korunk, secara indirectly..so, thanked them..kalau korunk sakit hati pun dengan kawan korunk, just let them be.. you actually can control your mind and heart to whatever things yang you all nak buat..korunk kena kuat semangat... i faced a great conflicts in my life when i was in SAMURA and PASUM..i'm not exaggerating things..its not really because i was really in both institution, but memang life conflict upon that time tengah critical...korunk boleh jumpa pelbagai ragam manusia, di mana sahaja tempat korunk pegi, so its you to decide how you want to look into those situation.. just tackle the conflicts wisely and remember, Allah kan selalu ada untuk kita..Dia Maha Menolong dan Maha Mendengar..
Last but not least, aku nak share dengan korunk yang merasakan besarnya dugaan dan cabaran sebagai seorang student riwayat dari Muslim dalam Shahihnya: Hadis no 2699.
Beliau meriwayat:
"Sesiapa yang menempuh satu jalan kerana mencari ilmu, maka Allah akan memudahkan baginya jalan ke syurga.”
Aminnnn...Moga kita boleh pedoman dan beroleh manfaat dari-Nya.
